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Let's get ratchy! Let's get ratchy! [Jun. 1st, 2009|05:15 pm]
[music |"Seven" - Dave Matthews Band]

Life has been really rough lately...

Since school has been out, I've had the greatest luck imaginable.

First, I won a DMB contest and got their new CD (Big Whiskey and the GrooGrux King) about two weeks early! It's absolutely amazing. They never cease to amaze!

I also got a new car! It's a 2009 silver Ford Fusion. I love it...it has the SYNC package inside. So, it can sync with my phone and iPod and I talk to the car and it will play whatever I say or call whoever I want. Sun roof, in-dash 6-CD player, Sirius satellite radio, 28 miles per gallon. I'm still trying to come up with a name for it. Let me know if you have any ideas.



I got a new phone with bluetooth capability and a new iPod FOR my car. I'm a spoiled brat. Literally.

Last week, Jenn and I went to see Third Eye Blind. We decided to stand in the first row of the second level. Excellent choice. I usually choose to stand in the pit. Consequently, I get kicked in the head by crowd-surfers, drown in sweat, and have trouble breathing while trying to dodge drunken fights. Our new spot was eye-level with the band and we had plenty of room. Low vs. Diamond opened. They were one of the best opening bands I've ever seen. They remind me a lot of the Killers. Check them out. Third Eye Blind was great, as always. They played about half and half old and new stuff. Their new stuff sounds really good and I'm eagerly awaiting Ursa Major's release this summer. However, the most impressive thing about 3EB for me is their absolute devotion to their fans. I have NEVER seen a band that goes out of its way to meet people and make everyone happy. They took requests from the crowd, brought six people backstage before they started, and shouted out to a fan that wrote to them on their Twitter.

Yesterday, Dad and I went to see A Chorus Line at the Aronoff. I'm even further convinced that it is my favorite musical of all-time. The music is incredible, the story is great. I just love it. After the show, we went to an early dinner at Cadillac Ranch. As I was walking back from the bathroom, I spotted NICK LACHEY sitting at the bar. I literally stopped walking and my jaw dropped. He saw this and smiled. I smiled back but decided not to bother him and returned to my dinner. After much persuasion, my dad convinced me to go with him over to Nick and talk to him. This is how it went:

Dad: I understand that your name is Nick Lachey.
Nick: I understand the same thing.
Dad: Well, I'm Page Johnson and this is your biggest fan, my daughter Brittany. (Gross overstatement, by the way).
Nick (shakes my hand): It's nice to meet you.
Dad: I also understand that you went to Miami. So does she.
Nick: That I did. How do you like it there?
Me: I love it.
Random guy drinking a beer with Nick: Stay there as long as you can. Real life sucks.
Nick: What is your major?
Me: I'm a political science and spanish double major.
Nick: Not very many Spanish speakers in Butler County.
Me: *laugh like an idiot*
Dad: Can she get a picture with you?
Nick: Of course. I'd love to get a picture with my fellow Redhawk.
Dad: *click*



Then, we launched into the normal "It was nice to meet you" jib jab. He was incredibly nice...and of course, highly attractive. :)

LP graduated on Saturday. I can't believe that my family no longer has any connection to Lebanon High School. It's actually very depressing. Lebanon was so great to me and, unlike many, I loved high school. I have so many wonderful memories from class, football games, teachers, friends. It's just strange to think that that chapter of our lives is completely done. It was wonderful to watch LP graduate though. He graduated with a lot of honors from the career center. He won awards of distinction in his field and I was extremely proud of him. He has truly become a kind and upstanding young man...let alone an awesome little brother.



As a matter of fact, the only thing that has gone wrong since summer started is the flood of Central Perk. Our sump pump stopped working and the basement (Jenn, Cara, and my room) flooded with about an inch of water. No one knew for a few days because we weren't living there. When Katie found it, it smelled like rotting flesh (literally) and a lot of our stuff was ruined. We went to Oxford to salvage as much as we could. Overall, things weren't too bad. The only major thing that I lost was my keyboard. I'm just grateful. It could have been far worse...at least it wasn't a fire!

The last couple of weeks have been a perfect time for me to reflect on how unbelievably lucky I am. It goes without saying that I'm spoiled in a material sense, but I am also truly spoiled in a relationship sense. I can't describe to you how lucky I am to have these people in my life. I have the most tremendous parents you could ever imagine. They would drop anything if I needed them. They show me everyday what true love is and they have taught me how to love others. My mom has inspired me with her selfless devotion to her children and home. If I can be even half the mother she is, I'm set. My dad has instilled in me work ethic, determination, and a love for all things new and different. He has opened my eyes to the world and I will never be the same. It has been so wonderful to spend time with my siblings. Despite our differences, they show me unconditional love and mutual appreciation. I love them with everything I have. As if my family weren't enough, I have the most amazing best friends. Jenn is constantly re-defining what it means to be a best friend and showing me firsthand how rewarding it is to be completely selfless. I basically have a second family that cares for me like one of their own. Over the years, Mr. and Mrs. Koenig, Kelly, and Josh have become family to me, too. Sib, Morgan, and Ashley have finally proven to me that distance does not mean that all is lost. They are truly the first relationships I have had that have grown STRONGER since we've been apart and I love them so much. TJ, Eric, CJ, Nick, and Ben are the most comfortable friends I've ever had. I feel completely free to say whatever I want around them and I know that they will love me no matter what, despite how unbelievably weird I can be. Cara, Lindsey, Jessica, Sarah, Katie, and Kristin have been fantastic housemates. Contrary to popular belief, eight girls can live in a house without fighting. Sayre, Ben, Matt, Neal, Alex, Kenny, Christie, Steph, Devon, Britit, Rob, Kaytee, and Dana have shown me that separation and not talking may weather a friendship, but it doesn't end it. Everytime I see them, I feel like we pick up right where we left off.

Things have changed so much over the last three years, but honestly, I wouldn't change it for the world. I feel so loved and ultimately happy right now. I can't possibly explain how grateful I am for everyone in my life. I live in a wonderful place, go to a wonderful school, have amazing opportunities, and most importantly, I'm surrounded by Grade-A people that make me better for having known them. I might forget how lucky I am from time to time when things go wrong, but don't worry. It never takes me long to remember.

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School's Out for Summer... [May. 16th, 2009|05:02 pm]
[music |"Why I Am" - Dave Matthews Band]


A few cool things that I forgot to mention:

* Dad and I saw Grease when it came to town in January. Taylor Hicks played Teen Angel. I still love him, even though he's one of the least popular idols. <3

*Dad and I saw James Carville, the "Ragin' Cajun," talk at Miami. He was hilarious.

*Derailed, Jenn, CJ, and I went to watch Girl Talk perform during the last week of classes. I had mixed feelings on the performance because they split the audience into two sections. The section we were in, the back one, really wasn't dancing and most people left pretty early. You really can't complain about a free concert, though.

*Jenn, CJ, Eric, TJ, and I went to Charlottesville after classes ended. It was glorious. We just relaxed, walked around downtown and on campus, went to Carter Mountain Apple Orchard, ate a lot, and talked. It was a wonderful end to the school year. I love them all a ton.





In other news, the basement of Central Perk flooded sometime this week. Apparently, the sump pump stopped working. So, about an inch of water covered the floor of the entire basement. My keyboard was fried and some of my stuff was ruined, but we were able to salvage most of it (because most of it was off the floor). Now, we are waiting for our landlord to make the calls necessary to suck up the water, replace the carpets, etc. Awesome.

I don't know what it is about summer, but I pretty much lose all of my creative ability. I'm not sure if it's the lack of academic stimuli or the feeling of complete laziness and relaxation on my part, but I never seem to have very much to say. I'll work on it. :)
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Buckeye State at its Finest. [Apr. 23rd, 2009|05:43 pm]
[music |"Blackbird" - Beatles]

I don't even know what to say.

The Ohio Senate just passed a bill (with a vote of 30-3) that makes it illegal to drink urine.

This raises a number of questions for me.

1. Why are they discussing urine drinking/collecting in the first place?
2. Aren't there better things to be talking about right now?

...and most importantly...

3. Who are the three people who didn't think this was a good idea?

I suppose I'm not opposed to people drinking their own urine. I just get a little weirded out when there is talk of urine collection...and then consumption...and that's coming from ME. So, you know it's weird.

Also, how are they going to enforce this? I can just see the URINE COPS busting into private residences: "IS THAT URINE OR MOUNTAIN DEW YOU HAVE IN THAT CUP, YOUNG MAN? YEP, YOU'RE COMING WITH US!"

In other news, Anoop Desai was voted off of American Idol last night. Don't worry though...it's not like I voted for him six times...*cough*
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AND SHE'S BACK! [Apr. 22nd, 2009|06:00 pm]
[music |"Granny" - Dave Matthews Band]


Instead of doing homework, I decided to check out my journal for the first time in months. I went back to entries from 2005 and got very nostalgic. I also got mad at myself for neglecting my beloved journal for so long...so, I'm making my glorious return RIGHT NOW.

A lot has happened in my life since the last time we talked. Here's a little catch-up for the folks at home:

1. Halloween was fun. Derailed had a party and the costumes were great.



2. Slumdog Millionaire came out. If you haven't seen it yet, please do. Actually, go get it right now. Speaking of Slumdog, I have a new celebrity crush...but let's be honest, who am I without my celebrity crushes?

For your viewing pleasure, Dev Patel.



3. I'm 21. Jenn's 21. We're all 21. Pictures are far too obscene to be posted...I'm joking. I went to 45 East with the fam.

4. Central Perk threw a Miamily Thankgiving feast. Here's the house.



5. Jenn, Sib, Linz, and I went to Las Vegas for spring break. As was expected, it was amazing. Lots of sight-seeing, we went to see Love at the Mirage, took a trip to the Hoover Dam, and went to Old Las Vegas.



6. I saw Dave Matthews Band twice...in two nights...in Charlottesville. I cannot even express to you how amazing it was. Dave concerts are the closest thing I've ever had to a religious experience. I just feel so connected when listening to him play. I can't get enough of them. It was weird seeing them without LeRoi (the saxophone player), but they didn't disappoint. The setlists were completely different both nights and they had crazy Tim Reynolds there. I cannot wait for their new CD in June!



7. I'm going through that Beatles stage. I feel like everyone goes through a Beatles stage at some point in their life...and I'm in the middle of mine. John Lennon has quickly become a major influence on me.

8. School is really tough. I don't know if classes are really hard, if I'm just really burnt out, or if it's a combination of the two, but I'm struggling. Exams are coming up...and that means so is summer. So, I'll suck it up, put my head down, and truck through.

9. I won an awesome award last week. The Alan and Sondra Engel Prize is given once a year to one junior and one senior that show "outstanding promise in the field of law." I got a certificate, a Black's Law Dictionary, and $100. I felt like a bum because I couldn't make it to the awards ceremony...but I was EXTREMELY honored and pleasantly surprised.

10. I went on a visit to UVA's law school. It's one of the absolute toughest in the country to get into but I'm going for it. The LSATs are really starting to scare me...and I need to do a LOT of studying. We'll see how that works out.

I promise to update more often. My track record has become dismal...but I vow to fix it.

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Oxford Block Parties = Protests [Sep. 19th, 2008|04:23 pm]
[music |"Another Kind of Green" - John Mayer]


Yeah, so it's about time for an update.

Life in Central Perk has been treating me well. I live in the basement (aka Hell) with Jenn and Cara. I absolutely love my room. It's really nice to live in a house...I've gotten pretty sick of dormlife.

So, as many of you know, Oxford experienced quite the power outage this weekend due to a huge wind storm caused by Hurricane Ike. The power in Central Perk didn't come on until Tuesday night (around midnight). Classes were canceled on Monday, yet not again on Tuesday. Keep in mind: Talawanda and Edgewood were closed. All the administration did to inform us was send out e-mails and texts, a brilliant move considering our easy access to computers and charged cell phones. A few students organized a sit-in on President Hodge's lawn, just to talk to him face-to-face and tell him to do a better job at communicating with upperclassmen.

It quickly got out of hand.

A myriad of bored (and semi-drunk) Miami students wondered onto the lawn and quickly covered High Street. Cops were called in to shut down the road. More and more students joined in. By the end of the night, there were an estimated 3,000 students there, chanting things like "We have rights," "No power, No class," and "No shower, no food, no class." Bottles were thrown at cops, branches were pulled off of trees and passed around, a girl lit her bra on fire, guys climbed trees and light poles, and Hodge's house was toilet-papered. A handful of students were even arrested. Cops were called in from all around, including Fairfield and Mason. To complicate things even further, the lights on High Street and throughout campus went off at around 10:30. The screaming was unreal. I've never seen/heard anything like it. Incidentally, Hodge wasn't even in Oxford. He was in Columbus.


Credit is given to Alex Turvy for the pictures.


Now, a number of people who already believed the stereotype that Miami kids are bored rich kids who would rather drink than go to class feel validated in that belief. As 1 of the 3,000, I can honestly say that I wasn't there to protest or riot against the administration for having class. I was there because I was bored. We had no power...which translated into no TV, no movies, no football, no video games, no music, and even if I wanted to...no homework. If anyone actually believed that classes would be canceled for the following day, they were a member of a VERY small group. The rest of the "protestors" were simply there for lack of better things to do. And let's be honest, it was definitely entertaining.

So, unfortunately, what started as a good cause/idea snowballed into yet another reason for the rest of the world to view Miami as a bunch of stuck-up, selfish kids. Although I agree that there are far better reasons to be protesting, I can also agree that the Miami administration did not do the best job at communicating to upperclassmen what was happening. As a matter of fact, because there was power on campus and in the dorms, it almost seemed that the administration was favoring the underclassmen.

Sure, I see where the "selfish" stereotype plays into this. No, I cannot imagine what it would be like to live in Texas right now. I can't imagine living in New Orleans in the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina. I complained enough about being powerless, showerless, and foodless for almost three days. Yes, I take things for granted. Yes, I am a spoiled brat...but aren't we all? Is complaining relative? It doesn't matter how well off you are or where you live. You're always going to complain when your circumstances change. Let's be realistic: I know I wasn't the only one who complained about the new Facebook layout. Complaining is not relative. We're all going to complain, no matter how much luckier than most we are. It's human nature. This is something I've come to accept.

Yet another pathetic realization I came to was that our student body doesn't even mobilize like that for a football game...or any sporting event for that matter (including hockey). I'm in awe of the power of an impassioned group. Maybe, just maybe, we can put our passion together someday for a worthier cause. 

In other news: The Bengals are letting me down yet again. That's alright. I've grown accustomed to this feeling. I'll stick with them like I always have. Oh yeah, and the Buckeyes game was just painful. I know USC is good, but sweet heavens...
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Because I Don't Have Enough Time for a REAL Entry... [Sep. 12th, 2008|10:28 am]
Here's the deal:

1. I watch 100 movies in a year.
2. I keep track of the ones I watch in THIS entry.
3. I can watch movies that I've already seen before, but they will be marked with an *.
4. You guys comment and suggest movies for me to watch.

Start: 9-12-08
End: 9-12-09

Just warning you...this will take a long time...because I'm busy a lot...


001. Burn After Reading
002. Eagle Eye
003. Forgetting Sarah Marshall*
004. Snatch*
005. Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
006. Tigerland
007. Quarantine
008. Zack and Miri Make a Porno
009. Wedding Crashers*
010. Swingers*
011. Twilight
012. Four Christmases
013. The Dark Knight*
014. Seven Pounds
015. Grosse Pointe Blank
016. The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
017. Death Race
018. The Holiday
019. Vantage Point
020. Step Up 2: The Streets
021. Fear*
022. My Bloody Valentine 3-D
023. Religulous
024. Slumdog Millionaire
025. Slumdog Millionaire*
026. Easy Rider
027. Four Christmases*
028. Milk
029. Slumdog Millionaire*
030. Haunting in Connecticut
031. I Love You, Man
032. Hot Rod
033. Seven Pounds*
034. Frost/Nixon
035. Taken
036. Forgetting Sarah Marshall*
037. Grey Gardens
038. RocknRolla
039. Bride Wars
040. High School Musical
041. Valkyrie
042. The Namesake
043. Little Miss Sunshine
044. Australia
045. Forgetting Sarah Marshall*
046. Because of Winn-Dixie*
047. The Boy in the Striped Pajamas
048. Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay
049. The Hangover
050. The Day the Earth Stood Still
051. Prom Night
052. Revolutionary Road
053. Gran Torino
054. Defiance
055. Thank You for Smoking*
056. American Psycho
057. The International
058. Friday the 13th
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Phelps-A-Holic Much? [Aug. 15th, 2008|06:04 pm]
[music |"Turn Up Your Swag" - Chip the Ripper]

I think it goes without saying that I want Michael Phelps for Christmas. For those of you lucky enough to have known me for over four years, you probably remember my obsession with Mr. Phelps four years ago at the Athens games. To put this into perspective: I still have some of his swims saved indefinately on the Johnson family TiVo. A couple nights ago, I even hunted down an essay I wrote junior year for Mrs. Nell's Advanced Composition class, an essay in which I described Phelps's win in the 200 m fly in agonizing detail.

I suppose if I could summarize my feelings for Michael Phelps, it would look something like this:



That is a picture of a man who told NBC that he consumes 12,000 calories per day, which is roughly 9,500 more calories than the FDA recommends for an active male his age. I can't really say something about Mr. Phelps that America hasn't heard before. Calling him the "Towson Torpedo" (by the way, my parents met and lived in Towson for many years) doesn't do him justice. He's essentially a fish...and even more impressively, he's recently become the most decorated Olympian of all-time. Not only has he been awarded with 6 gold medals in this Olympic run, he has finished all six races in world record fashion. Not too bad for a 23-year old Michigan grad (BOO!) with ADHD...

However, there is something that concerns me. America has come to expect gold medals from him. No one watches him swim and actually fathoms a silver or bronze performance. This, of course, isn't realistc. As a matter of fact, if Phelps does falter and cannot bring home all EIGHT pieces of gold hardware, Americans will probably revere his run in Beijing as a disappointment. This, obviously, is outrageous. Despite the media hype, Michael Phelps isn't flawless, isn't perfect, and CAN lose. I cannot even begin to imagine the amount of pressure he's under...nor do I want to try. 

So, for now, I will sit at home...every night...biting my fingernails and ignoring the Phelps bandwagon support that has cropped up in the last week. I know what it's like to wait four years for his return...and I'm prepared to do it again. America will cherish their Olympic poster boy while he surpasses Mark Spitz's 7 Olympic golds tomorrow night...then, they will essentially forget about him until London in 2012...when he will come back to blow our minds all over again. 

I will eagerly be waiting. :)



Finally, why can't Chad Johnson stop talking? Does he not realize that most of his "loyal" Cincinnati fans are fed-up with him now after he tried oh-so-desperately to abandon them after last season? Now, he's trying to embarass us even further by telling ESPN that he could beat Michael Phelps in a swim race. Can't he at the very least limit his trash-talking to his own sport?

I will update again this week with my thoughts on gymnastics, China, and moving in to CENTRAL PERK!
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Golly Gee Willikers, Batman! You've Made the Biggest Box Office Hit of All-Time! [Jul. 22nd, 2008|02:56 am]
[music |"Free Fallin'" - John Mayer]

I'm slightly disgusted with myself that this is only my second journal entry of the summer. Nevertheless, here it is.

First things first: The Dark Knight

Just to give you an idea of how much I liked this movie, I'll tell you that I've seen it three times in theaters within five days of its release.

That being said, I wish very much that my opinion wasn't so similar to the rest of American movie-goers, but it is. I loved this movie...everything about it, actually. Non-stop action, impressive acting, an incredible script. I loved the movie's deep analysis of the common literary themes of hero vs. villain and even more so, order vs. chaos and anarchy. The movie truly has much more to offer than your typical superhero summer Blockbuster. Although Christian Bale is not my favorite Batman from over the years, he plays the role admirably and has certainly garnered my respect. Michael Caine and Morgan Freeman are wonderful as always, reprising their roles as Alfred and Lucius Fox. Gary Oldman continues to impress as police commissioner Jim Gordon, and even caused me to momentarily forget him as Sirius Black. Although I was bothered with the recasting of Bruce Wayne's love interest Rachel Dawes, I was much more impressed with Maggie Gyllenhaal's portrayal as opposed to creepy Katie Holmes's. Although Heath Ledger has gotten the lionshare of media attention and popular praise, Aaron Eckhart absolutely blew me away as Harvey Dent. I believe he deserves almost as much acclaim as Ledger has been receiving. Needless to say, he puts Tommy Lee Jones to shame.



And finally - oh come on, you knew this was coming - Heath Ledger as the Joker. I don't know what to say other than PERFECT. Although I've always loved Heath, I have to admit I was skeptical of this role. I heard people talking about an Oscar nomination and my first thought was: A villain in Batman winning the Oscar? Ehhh...I hope not. Maybe the Academy is just trying to apologize for neglecting to award his role in Brokeback. But really, is he deserving? 

And the answer is yes. Heath has created the first truly iconic Hollywood villain since Anthony Hopkins's Hannibal Lector. Deeply twisted, chilling, and yet strangely humorous, Ledger steals every scene that he's in. The make-up, the voice, everything about him is completely unrecognizable. All three times I've seen it, the entire theater has erupted in nervous laughter at various points in the film, due to Ledger's sinister games and dialogue. I'm not blasphemous enough to insult Jack Nicholson, but Heath's performance absolutely crushed the life out of his previous Joker. Ledger's superb portrayal of one of America's favorite villains has only made me more upset at his early demise. Between his role in Brokeback Mountain and his role in The Dark Knight (which, by the way, could not be more opposite), I am firmly convinced that Ledger could have played any role he set his mind to...and had he not died, may have gone down as one of the greatest actors of all-time.

...And so, I'm aboard the bandwagon on this one. Heath deserves a posthumous Oscar nomination (and probably a win to boot). AND not surprisingly, his incredible acting has caused me to find him ultra-attractive, which now brings my total of deceased celebrities that I would do to 3: Elvis Presley, John Belushi, and Heath Ledger. I kid you not. Despite how sadistic and terrifying Heath was in this movie, I found myself thinking, "Man, this is kind of hot" on multiple occasions.

I apologize for the long Batman update...but clearly, I'm a Batman fan. *See my entry from 2/11/08* 

All I've done all summer is read. I've finished The Haunted and Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk, A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose by Eckhart Tolle, Nights in Rodanthe by Nicholas Sparks, and The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants all within the last month. I guess there are worse things a jobless 20-year old could be doing.

In other news, my boo Brian Urlacher has extended his contract with the Bears into 2012. I love my life.

Hello, my name is Brittany Johnson and I have a media problem. Yes, I realize my disgusting infatuation with media of all sorts. Whether it's movies, music, books, sports...I'm simply obsessed. At least I've come to terms with this and have admitted it to myself. I hear that's half the battle. 

I promise I'll post a more meaningful entry within the week. I've had very little intellectual stimuli this summer. Give me a break.
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Our Last Days as Children [May. 11th, 2008|09:23 pm]
[music |"Your Hand in Mine" - Explosions in the Sky]

My sister is graduating and my brother is a senior. I can't comprehend how or why, but time is flying. I'm halfway done with college already, yet I still feel like a child. Sometimes, it's too much for me to handle. We're growing, we're learning, we're remembering.

Since I've been home, I've been remembering. Parked outside of the football field, it all came flooding back. I remember it all like it was yesterday.

I remember when we would stay up all night just because we could. We drove around, wasting time and gas, but it didn't matter. We were together. We spent countless hours laughing at each other, even though we weren't funny. We held onto each other because we knew it would never be the same again. We learned each other during late nights at Waffle House. We laid, together in silence, counting the stars and realizing how insignificant we were. We stood in the summer rain and felt alive. We held our breath and time stood still. We breathed in the autumn breeze and vowed never to forget. We explored each other, late at night with no one around, finding our bodies and finding ourselves. We cheered at the football games, putting more importance on the outcome of games than we should have. We made promises to stay in touch, tears streaming down our faces. We cried at how beautiful and how simple everything was. We were scared at how fast it was ending. We cursed all the time we had wasted. We felt ourselves become overwhelmed with how right it felt. We worried that we'd never find it again. These were our last days as children.
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Adios Amigos [May. 8th, 2008|06:25 pm]
[music |"Love Song" - Sara Bareilles]

For those too brain-dead from exams to decipher whether this is good or bad news, I'll coordinate these with symbols.

+ One exam left
- It's going to be a rough exam with a lot of studying tonight
+ David Archuleta may as well be the next American Idol...he sang an Elvis song better than Elvis last night. :)
+ American Gladiators is back next Monday.
- I have to get a job this summer...and I'm still jobless.
+ I CANNOT WAIT TO HANG OUT WITH MY D4L GIRLS
+ I'm going to practice piano all summer long.
+ HOORAY FOR FREE READING!
- For the first time, I'm not excited to go back to Lebanon.

Don't get me wrong. I miss all of my friends and family from back home, but I'm really happy here. I'm incredibly excited for classes to be done, but I love the people here. Finally, I found a group of people and it feels right with them. When I left high school, I never thought I'd find another group of friends that I felt comfortable around. I thought I had to start over, make good first impressions, and pretend to be someone I wasn't, so that people weren't creeped out by my blunt honesty, my fear of bananas and prepositions, my lack of peripheral vision, etc.

I was wrong, though. With the exception of D4L, I finally found a group that I feel MORE comfortable with. I don't censor myself in the least bit, I say exactly what I'm thinking, and we have fun. Unfortunately, also for the first time, members of this group of friends don't live within a 20-mile radius of me. Needless to say, I'm going to be slightly sad when I get back home.

At any rate, it's time for me to study for 30 minutes before Jeopardy. :)

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(no subject) [Apr. 29th, 2008|01:26 am]
I can't believe it's over.
I watched the whole thing fall and I never saw the writing that was on the wall.
If I'd only knew, the days were slipping past, that the good things never last, that you were crying.
Summer turned to winter and the snow it turned to rain and the rain turned into tears upon your face.
I hardly recognize the girl you are today and God, I hope it's not too late.

'Cause you are not alone.
I'm always there with you.
We'll get lost together 'til the light comes pouring through.
'Cause when you feel like you're done and the darkness has won,
Babe, you're not lost.
When the world is crashing down and you can't bear the thought,
Babe, you're not lost.

Life can show no mercy.
It can tear your soul apart.
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy but you're not.
Things have seemed to change.
There's one thing that's still the same.
In my heart, you have remained and we can fly away.

'Cause you are not alone.
I am there with you.
We'll get lost together 'til the light comes pouring through.
'Cause when you feel like you're done and the darkness has won,
Babe, you're not lost.
When the world is crashing down and you cannot bear the cross,
Baby, you're not lost.

...Quite possibly the most beautiful lyrics I've ever heard.
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For those who love whiners... [Apr. 26th, 2008|08:57 pm]
I hate to be a girl right now, but I’m going to do it.
 
I want love. I spend a decent amount of time and energy telling myself that I don’t want it, I don’t need it, and that it’ll come when it’s ready. However, lately, I’ve realized that I’m ready. I’ve been ready. I’ve got my head on straight, my priorities are right, I have a future plan established for myself and I’m working toward it. I'm not perfect but I’m ready…and I do want love.
 
However, I’m starting to worry that it won’t come. I’m 20-years old and I’ve never had a boyfriend…not a legitimate one, anyway. I’m surrounded almost entirely by devoted Christians. Even if I wanted a relationship with one of them (which I don’t), it wouldn’t happen because I’m not a Christian. I promise not to stereotype here, but it’s not like I can just go to a bar uptown and meet guys. Those aren’t the guys I want to meet.
 
I want to meet a guy who is physically imposing (I suppose you could just substitute that lofty phrase with “tall and thick”) and disarmingly dorky. I want a guy who is intelligent and funny. I want to meet a guy who is interested in me and not afraid to admit that to his friends. I want a guy who isn’t intimidated by my intelligence, but rather intrigued. I want a guy that wants to just listen to me play the piano and sing.
 
Contrary to popular belief, I don’t want a professional football player. That, my friends, is lust…not love. As a matter of fact, the guy doesn’t even have to like football…he just needs to accept that I’m going to watch it.
 
Recently, I saw Forgetting Sarah Marshall. I hate to make a celebrity comparison but that’s what I want. I want an oversized, dorky guy who writes Dracula musicals in his spare time. He’s funny, intelligent, loving, dorky, big, and he even plays the piano. He’s also fictional. That seems to be a reoccuring problem with me. I can’t help but strive for a Vince Vaughn or a Jason Segel. They’re my ideal.
 
So, maybe that’s half of my problem. Maybe I’m not seeing someone that’s right in front of my eyes…simply because they aren’t Vince Vaughn. Maybe there is this wonderful guy that fits all of these categories right before my very eyes and I’m missing it.
 
But that’s the optimistic point of view. What if there isn’t? What if there won’t be? Even worse, what if there is and he just isn’t interested in me? I have found someone that fits all of those categories, and after four years of knowing each other, he’s just not interested in me. So, what do I do? I keep holding on to this real-life hybrid of Vince Vaughn and Chandler Bing and I can’t let go.
 
Everyone tells me that maybe I’m not finding someone else because I’m not trying to let go. They’re partially right. I suppose I haven’t truly let go yet, but you can’t say I’m not trying. It’s not an easy task to let go of your ideal guy. He doesn’t come around very often.
 
I suppose this journal entry was written for a variety of reasons: loneliness, romanticism, jealousy, to name a few. It just seems that everyone I know is falling in love. The Spring love bug has bitten everyone around me…and here I sit, on a Saturday night, in my dorm room, alone and writing this journal entry. Don’t get me wrong. I’m incredibly happy for all of my friends that are in love. It just wears on you after a while when you get to watch all your friends find the right person and you can’t stop thinking about how you haven’t yet.
 
He doesn’t even need to be the guy I marry. I just want to be in love, if only for a while. I want to be in love, feel loved, and get hurt. I want to learn how relationships work (from someone other than my younger siblings). I want to make mistakes and become a better person for having made them. Most importantly, I want to know that it is possible for someone to love me and that it will happen again. I want to know that I am worth loving in a romantic sense and that I won’t be one of those 40-year old widows that are trying Match.com as a final option.
 
Of course, I’m a girl. I’m beyond insecure. I’m awkward, strange, and not exactly a looker. I hate how much I weigh and I don’t like my glasses or my teeth. I know I’m not many people’s ideal girl, but I must be someone’s. Right? Or am I just conditioned to think that after having seen too many movies? The dork always gets the girl, the underdog always wins, everyone is always in love at the end. The guy always sweeps the girl off of her feet. I’m just worried he won’t be able to carry me.
 
Sorry for sounding so melodramatic, but this is my journal and that’s just what I do.
 
Oh yeah – Congratulations, Chris Long. You were drafted by the St. Louis Rams in the second pick of the draft. All of your haters out there are officially proven wrong…and I’m in mourning because you aren’t in Cincinnati.
 
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Uh oh...look out corporate world! [Apr. 15th, 2008|06:26 pm]
[music |"Imagine" - John Lennon]

The day has finally come. Dad is forcing me to get a job this summer. 

So, where should I work? I would really appreciate suggestions...because I'm in a frenzy of panic.
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It's Been a While since I've Ranted... [Apr. 2nd, 2008|12:50 pm]
[mood | frustrated]
[music |"No Air" - Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown]

New Rule: Don't call me a "Pagan."

Pa-gan [pey-guhn] - noun
1. one of a people or community observing a polytheistic religion, as the ancient Romans and Greeks.
2. someone motivated by desires for sensual pleasures

- Synonyms: heathen, gentile

Look, I realize that dictionary.com and wikipedia aren't the most reliable sources but here's a brief summary of what PAGANISM is.

Paganism has connotations of SPIRITUALIST practices or beliefs of any FOLK RELIGION. It includes Eastern religions, Native American religions and mythologies, neoreligions (like Wicca), and ethnic religions. It is comparable to "heathen" and "infidel." Ethnologists avoid using the term because it is OFFENSIVE and instead, they use the terms "polytheism," "shamanism," and "pantheism." 

The originial meaning of the Latin word paganus was an adjective meaning "rural" or "of the country." This meant that people living outside of urban areas were called "pagans" and it was used to mean "villager" or "country dweller." It is similar to today's usage of the word "HILLBILLY." It is now commonly used as an insult by adherents of monotheistic religions (such as Judaism, Christianity, and Islam). However, it most often refers to the religions of classic antiquity, GREEK MYTHOLOGY or ROMAN religion. "Pagan" came to signify a person who is "sensual, materialistic, self-indulgent, unconcerned with the future and uninterested in sophisticated religion."

I'll stop there.

Come on, people. I'm not a Christian. Does that make me a Wiccan, a Native American, or an Ancient Roman? I'm not saying there is anything wrong with those religions...I just don't adhere to them. I don't appreciate being called a hillbilly and I don't think I'm any more sensual, materialistic, or self-indulgent than most of the Christians that I know. I sure as hell know I'm concerned with the future and I'm also incredibly interested in sophisticated religion. To put it bluntly, I don't like being called a heathen or an infidel.

As a matter of fact, members of other Abrahamic religions call Christians "pagans." With the Roman Catholic saints and the Christian doctrine of the Trinity, it's easy for members of other religions to think that Christians are quasi-polytheistic. I bet you don't like that. So, if you can't take it, stop dishing it out.

I'll make it simple. We'll try the transitive property for the visual learners:

Brittany = Pagan
Pagan = Heathen
Brittany = Heathen

...I don't like that. So, stop. If you're going to use a term with a negative/offensive connotation, figure out what it means and who you're talking about first. I apologize for my smartass attitude...it just makes me angry.

I have been called a "pagan" at least three times to my face by people I consider good friends. However, I encountered the most ignorant usage of the term "pagan" the other day when I saw that someone said they were going to try to vomit at a party on High Street, in an attempt to appear like a drinker and "attract the pagans."

Now, not only was this person referring to all non-Christians as pagans, but he/she was also assuming that all non-Christians are drinkers. I cannot begin to explain how angry this makes me. I'm not a Christian, I also don't drink. I don't go to parties because there is drinking there...as a matter of fact, I avoid them at close to all costs. I think I live a relatively moral life...without being a Christian. 

In addition, on Green Beer Day, a small group of friends and I went uptown so that I could buy some Blue Moo Cookie Dough. Now, on the way back, we were stopped by a group of three people, asking us if we had anything we wanted to pray about. They proceeded to ask us if we believed in God and then, asked what we were doing uptown that day...in an incredibly accusatory tone. They were, in short, assuming we were drinking. Despite the fact that I admire their bravery for taking to the streets and putting up with belligerent drunks, I was highly offended that they assumed that just because I was uptown that night...I was a drinker or that I hadn't found God.

Also, since I'm on the topic already...

Agnostic
1. A person who holds that the existence of the ultimate cause, as God, and the essential nature of things are unknown and unknowable, or that human knowledge is limited to experience.
2. One who believes that it is impossible to know whether there is a God.
3. One who is skeptical about the existence of God but does not profess true atheism.

Atheist
1. A person who denies or disbelieves the existence of a supreme being.
2. Someone who denies the existence of god.

Learn that while you're at it.

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Even when the NFL has moved on, I haven't. [Mar. 14th, 2008|12:25 pm]
[mood | depressed]
[music |"I'm Yours" - Jason Mraz]

I know this is old news but I must react to it at some point:

As if losing Justin Smith and accepting the fact that Chris Long is going to be the number one draft pick (and not come to the Bengals) wasn’t enough, the man, the myth, the legend...Brett Favre...is gone. 

Now, I'm not going to sit here and claim that I'm a hardcore, never-faltering Cheesehead...but I can assure you that my entire extended family is. My mom grew up, for the most part, in
Wisconsin. My wonderful grandparents and two sets of aunts, uncles, and cousins still live there. If you think I like the Bengals, you should see the way they like the Packers.

You see, I grew up with five basic facts of life:

1. Steak and baked potato dinner on Sundays.
2. Don't say "Shut up" or "Crap" in the house or you'll get in trouble.
3. Don't walk in the road or down the creek.
4. Family is most important.
5. Brett Favre is a god.

 
In no way am I kidding about this. As a matter of fact, this is the prayer my mom told at Thanksgiving dinner this year:
 
Our Favre,
Who art in Lambeau,
Hallowed be thine arm.
The bowl will come,
It will be won,
In Arizona as it is in Lambeau.
Give us this Sunday,
Our weekly win.
And give us many touchdown passes,
But do not let others pass against us.
Lead us not into frustration,
But deliver us to Glendale.
For thine is the MVP, the best of the NFC,
And the glory of the Cheeseheads,
Now and forever.
Go get ‘em!
 
If that doesn't give you any insight into the deep passion that Packer fans have for Mr. Favre, then I don’t know what will. I certainly know I’d never say that about Carson. Also, Brett isn’t just liked by Cheeseheads, either. You aren’t American if you don’t like Brett Favre. He was in There’s Something about Mary for crying out loud.
 
So, this is my tribute to the memory and the legend of Brett Favre. You will truly be missed. Aaron Rodgers has some huge shoes to fill. 

 
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Instead of being productive... [Mar. 3rd, 2008|12:55 am]
[music |"Fear" - Sarah McLachlan]

Well, I have made the terrible decision to update my journal rather than get homework done. This week is going to be disgustingly busy...so I might as well update now. 

First and foremost:

RIP Justin Smith (2001-2007)



I will miss you more than you know. Not only are you gone, but I can't even watch your games with the 49ers. My jersey is a relic and I will never go to a Bengals game without wishing you were there. 

Needless to say, I'm a little bitter. 

In other news, I've been obsessed with Roswell lately. For those of you that don't know, Roswell is a television series that played between 1999-2001, starred Jason Behr, Brendan Fehr, and Katherine Heigl, and told the story of a group of four aliens who worked to learn more about their home planet and avoid detection by other aliens/FBI with the help of a few terrestrial friends. Jenn's mom has all three seasons on DVD and I've been watching them religiously each night.

Speaking of TV, I love David Archuleta from American Idol. Coming in second for me is the Australian Michael Johns. We'll see how that works out. 

I'm going to Virginia this weekend to feel out the apartment before Spring Break. I'm very excited. I'll certainly hunt for Chris Long while I'm there...because after his incredible performance in the combine, I'm fairly certain he'll go as the first draft pick (---to the Dolphins). :( 

I will write a political journal entry when time permits in the near future. The upcoming election has been occupying a lot of my conversation and thought as of late...so I'm sure it'll be lengthy. 
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Golly Gee Willikers, Batman! The Joker's on the loose! [Feb. 11th, 2008|10:04 pm]
[music |"No Sugar Tonight" - Guess Who]

Lately, I’ve been in a Batman state of mind.

 

I was asked the other day who my favorite superhero is…and without hesitation, replied, “Batman.” So, now I’ve been analyzing the reasons why.

 

First of all, Batman, unlike most superheroes, has no super powers. He wasn’t bitten by a spider. He isn’t from another planet. He isn’t a mutated or doctored super human. Instead, he is an affluent, intelligent, ladies’ man with too much time on his hands. After witnessing the tragic and random murder of his parents, Bruce inherits his father’s private technology company and the accompanying fortune. So, what does he choose to do? Save Gotham City. Bruce Wayne works himself to physical and intellectual perfection in an attempt to combat the random acts of violence that stole the lives of his parents. All Bruce has to work with is his excellent physical condition, his money, and the subsequent technology and cutting-edge weapons that his money allows him to purchase.

 

I think Batman is mostly commendable for his work because of his lack of credit. Sure, Peter Parker isn’t credited with being Spiderman. Clark Kent is known only as a reporter for the Daily Planet. But, let’s be honest. Batman is the only major superhero that is thought to be a villain by the civilians he tries to save (with the exception of Spiderman sometimes). The people of Gotham City view Bruce Wayne as an immature playboy that only cares about himself, his money, and the women he attempts to woo. The citizens of Gotham City also think Batman is a freak, a villain along the lines of the many characterized criminals that stalk the city’s dark allies.

 

So, why provide justice for a city that doesn’t give you the deserved credit or reputation? Is it best to be just, even when you aren’t recognized as such? As a matter of fact, Batman is commonly recognized as “unjust.” So, why not join the likes of the Joker, Mr. Freeze, Two-Face, Poison Ivy, the Riddler, the Penguin, or Scarecrow? A person can be unjust and reap many benefits if they are not caught. A person known as unjust might as well be unjust, in order to reap those benefits, right? But no. Despite the bad reputation, Bruce commits his life to the betterment of Gotham City. He always remains just, despite having to sacrifice living a stable personal life.

 

In other words, be more like Bruce Wayne. You don’t have to make yourself a skin-tight costume fashioned in the image of your favorite animal. You don’t have to have a badass butler or a cave in which you plan the next evening’s crime-fighting spree. But, you should always do what is right…even when you aren’t commended for it.

 

I think that is a major problem with today’s generation. People are more than willing to do the “right” thing or the charitable thing…as long as they’re praised for it or it benefits them in some way. Sure, we’ll join community service groups…to improve our resume or college application. We’ll help a friend if we know they’ll repay the favor in the future. We’ll donate money to a cause in order to feel better about ourselves. I’m guilty, too.

 

Since when did the “right” thing to do become the convenient thing to do? I’m not saying that everyone should live in borderline poverty in order to help everyone else. I’m just suggesting that a little altruism isn’t so bad sometimes. At the very least, you’ll be making someone else’s day and purifying your soul. Being at peace with yourself and helping others to do the same. That’s what it’s all about.

 

It’s best to do what’s right, despite the praise and benefits involved with it. Just ask Batman.

 

Wow…what the heck kind of entry was that?

 

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A Journal Entry Completely Devoted to Superbowl XLII [Feb. 4th, 2008|12:36 pm]
[music |"Casanova" - Levert]

First and foremost, I am still bitter at the Packers' loss to the Giants. Before the season even started, my Superbowl prediction was Patriots vs. Cowboys. As the season went on, I became more hopeful and switched to Patriots vs. Packers. I never would have predicted the Giants going to (and winning) the Superbowl. At any rate, I have no beef with the Giants. I've always been a Shockey fan and I also like Michael Strahan quite a bit. So, despite the fact that they ended the Packers run to the Superbowl and Eli Manning looks like a 16-year old adolescent boy that is still phasing through those awkward years, I was rooting for the Giants...against the odds.

If you know me at all, you know I'm not a Patriots fan. Never have been, most likely never will be. I like Vrabel, Seau, and Bruschi. I like that the offensive line looks like a group of wily lumberjacks that climbed down from the New England mountains and decided to play a football game. On the other hand, I simply don't worship Tom Brady like the rest of the population (and especially the female sector). Likewise, I'm not a fan of Randy Moss. I, however, do not deny the fact that they're good...actually, the best. The 2007 Patriots weren't messing around. History has been made folks, despite the outcome of last night's game...and unfortunately for me and the rest of Bengals nation, they don't look like they're slowing down anytime soon. 

So, was I happy to see Tom Brady's confused face as he was thrown to the ground multiple times? Yes, of course. Was I happy to see an underrated NFC team defeat the all-revered godlike team of the AFC? Yes, of course. Did I really care about the game in general? No. 

For some reason, last night's Superbowl extravaganza was a lackluster, anticlimactic end to the season. After a season of constant Patriot praise and admiration, the game just ended in a boring, albeit surprising, fashion. As a matter of fact, even the halftime show lacked the sparkle and pizazz of previous years. I'm not asking for a Janet Jackson peep show by any means (although I'd be okay with some footage of post-game showers)...and I really like Tom Petty...but wtf?

Even the commercials were a disappointment. 

Nevertheless, as in previous years, I will rate the best of the worst:

1. Coke's Charlie Brown - I simply loved this commercial. However, I honestly expected a Lucy float to steal the Coke from Chuck.
2. Cars.com Stone Circle Death Match - I very much preferred this commercial to its latter shrinking head one. Blame it on my obsession with American Gladiators.
3. American Idol Big Ben - I think Miami University heaved a collective sigh on this one. Ain't no thang in my book. American Idol and Benny Boo? Sounds wonderful to me. 
4. Talking Tide Stain - Hysterical...and I'm not even quite sure why.
5. Doritios Mousetrap - Shock factor is a plus.
6. Pepsi Justin Timberlake - Andy Samberg is obsessed with Justin Timberlake and Tony Romo makes a guest appearance. I'm going to support any commercial where good old J.T. takes a few shots to the junk.
7. FedEx Pigeons - Simply terrifying.
8. T-Mobile Charles Barkley - How can I not be reminded of Space Jam?
9. Coke Frist and Carville - It's an election year. How cute. Coke serves as the binding force that holds our nation together.
10. Audi - Godfather - This commercial tried to scare you into buying this car...and it worked.

And that's that.
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Go Ahead. Yell at Me. [Jan. 28th, 2008|03:13 pm]
[music |"Hide and Seek" - Imogen Heap]

Alright, I am ashamed to admit that I haven't updated my journal in over a month. The reason? Pure laziness. I will work on that.

At any rate, I will do a quick update for now regarding a few pressing issues:

1. Cloverfield and my take on it: First, I would like to warn anyone interested in seeing the movie that it has the highest level of vomit-inducing, camera shakiness that I've ever seen in a film. If you suffer from motion sickness, prepare yourself...multiple people had to leave the theater when I went to see it. That being said, the movie, in my opinion and despite various sources' opinion, was awesome...and I mean "awesome" in the true sense of the word. I thought the premise of the thing, being told solely through a camcorder, was brilliant and long overdue. Also, the special effects were impressive. Whether or not you're into monster movies, I suggest seeing the movie to form your own opinion.

2. Colin Powell at Miami: Last week, retired General of the United States Army and Secretary of State Colin Powell came to speak at Miami. It was free, I had no homework, it was a five minute walk away, and all I had to do was miss Jeopardy. There was no excuse not to go. I thought his speech was entertaining but lacked a theme. He talked about his entire life, however not in any order, his career, and current events. 

3. Wicked at the Aronoff: The night after Colin Powell, I went downtown with mom to see Wicked...FINALLY. I grew up in a family of avid musical and play-watchers, so naturally, I've wanted to see Wicked for quite some time. I even read the book and met its author (Gregory Maguire) last year. The play was phenomenal. The music was wonderful, the set was amazing. It really makes you appreciate The Wizard of Oz more than you already did...which I realize, in some cases, may not be at all. Haha...

4. American Gladiators: It seems impossible that one could grow up on Elvis Presley, Broadway musicals, University of Virginia football, Madonna, George Michael, and American Gladiators...but I guess that explains the way I turned out. Nevertheless, for years, I have eagerly awaited the return of one of the greatest television shows of all-time: American Gladiators. Finally, my dreams came true and although I would never dream to be a contender, I love the show just as much as I did before. Moving the Travelator to the end of the Eliminator has proved to be a good move. I am also thrilled that Assault (the one with the tennis balls) is back...and I'm still mourning the loss of the giant hamster ball event where people rolled around and ran into each other in huge human-sized balls. BUT, I love the new gladiators (especially Toa) and the show has been added to the unending repertoire of TV shows that I watch regularly.

5.  Heath Ledger (oh, come on...you knew it was coming): I am slightly depressed by the early/tragic loss of Heath Ledger. I, for one, have always liked him. I commend any guy that looks like that and doesn't take chick flic roles (with the exception of 10 Things I Hate about You and arguably A Knight's Tale). I very much enjoyed his performances in The Patriot and The Brothers Grimm. However, my favorite role was his portrayal of Ennis Del Mar in Brokeback Mountain. The fact that such a high-profile actor would be willing to take on a role of that caliber without fear and deliver in such a way is still amazing to me (ESPECIALLY since he isn't gay). I'm just glad that he reached the zenith of an acting career before his death: being nominated for an Oscar. Now, when it comes to the next installment in the Batman series...I've been claiming for months that his performance would blow Jack Nicholson's out of the water (huge statement, by the way). I'm very excited to see the film...which is in the post-production phase now...because I'm sure Heath will receive an ungodly amount of praise for his role (whether or not it is due). It's certainly a shame because I can't imagine what else he was capable of as an actor and more importantly, as a son, brother, father, and person. I wonder if he'll become the James Dean of our generation.



6. Superbowl XLII: I was told by a male friend of mine (who will remain nameless) that "wanting to make gentle yet impassioned love to Tom Brady doesn't make you gay." That terrifies me...because the amount of man crush that is going on is previously unheard of with the exception of Chuck Norris. I'm at a loss...and quite frankly, not even excited for the Superbowl.

Random Thought: It is a sad world when Meet the Spartans is #1 at the box office over the weekend...followed by Rambo. *vomits*
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Even the Invincible have to go [Dec. 5th, 2007|09:42 pm]

 

My Grandad died today after a long struggle with Alzheimers. 

Now, I'm sure most of you aren't too interested in what I'm going to write...but I'm writer, and this is how I deal with things.

I remember being a kid and listening to my Grandad's stories. He was always the best story teller. I'll never forget his stories about his days growing up in Kentucky. No matter how interesting his stories about frog-catching and bird-hunting were, I suppose the ones I'll never forget were his memories from WWII. Due to my borderline obsession with everything World War II, I was often the only one that would sit around with him and listen to the same story...for the 100th time. They simply never got old. Grandad was a pilot during the war and had his fair share of close calls. After having his plane shot down, but safely landing it, he was made a character in a comic strip in a nationally-run newspaper. I have the clippings at home. After the war, he was awarded with a myriad of impressive awards and was even invited to Britain to meet the Queen of England. Every time he told that story, he'd have to stop and cry because he said that he "didn't deserve to be there. His brothers that didn't make it should have been the ones there."

After the war, Grandad stuck with what he did best: he flew planes...this time, for commercial airlines. On a PAN AM flight to Puerto Rico, the pilot caught the eye of the stewardess/translator. So, my Grandad met my Nana...and as all cliches go, it was love at first sight. However, after a year of them dating, my Nana came down with polio and was crippled for a number of years. She begged him to leave her, he couldn't do it. So, they stuck through it together and with the help of what the doctors called a "miracle," my Nana pulled through. The family moved to Long Island, New York and they had two kids, Lewis Page Johnson III (my dad) and Nancy. Grandad wasn't around much, so my dad says, because he was always working. However, whenever he had time off, he took my dad on some of the most amazing trips imaginable (the perks of being a pilot, eh?). These trips fueled my dad's love for world travel...something that has been passed on to me because of my trips with him. 

Time marched on. Dad got married to Mom. I was born. Jamie was born. Finally, a boy...Lewis Page Johnson IV was born. I remember my grandparents visiting or taking us to their timeshare in Florida, the Native Sun. A couple years ago, they gave us that timeshare so that we could continue the tradition...long after they were gone. We have plans to go this summer. 

With them living in Florida and then in Iowa, I didn't get to see my grandparents very often. It's strange what we choose to remember...especially as children. I remember waking up early one morning, walking into our kitchen, and seeing my Grandad making a bowl of cereal for himself. I asked him what kind it was. He made me a bowl and told me to try it. It was Raisin Bran, which is now my favorite food. I remember another one of their visits to Lebanon. Nana was always a huge fan of Broadway...I guess that happens when you live that close to New York City. So, everytime they came to visit, she would write and choreograph a musical...that Jamie, LP, and I would sing/dance in for my parents. They taught us "It's a Grand Old Flag" and always gave us the admission money, $1 each. Listening to my Nana play the piano is what encouraged me to take lessons.

Time continued to march on. We got older, busier, too cool. We stopped visiting. They were too old to come see us. Grandad was diagnosed with Alzheimers. They took his car keys away. I tried to pretend it wasn't happening. My sophomore year in high school, the family went to the Native Sun with them for the last time. While talking to my Grandad, I mentioned something about the WEBN fireworks in Cincinnati. He replied, "Oh really? I have a son that lives in Cincinnati." I cried. We went to Iowa a couple more times...it was always torture. Grandad had no idea who I was...but he was always beyond friendly, always hugging, always thanking us for coming. It was a true testament to the kind of person he was.

Things got worse. He forgot my dad. For only the second time in my life, I saw my dad cry. My Nana wrote a story about their lives together. She would read it to him everyday. She's never seen the Notebook. He remembered her until he passed. When the Alzheimers made him forget how to swallow, my Nana was overwhelmed with sadness. She had a heart attack and was put in the same hospital room as her husband. They slept, holding hands. (It's too much like the Notebook, I know). My parents went to visit them for the last time. Then, today, he was gone. 

Strangely enough, I don't feel bad for not saying goodbye. He wouldn't have known who I was anyway. I talked to him on the phone last week. He apologized for everything he was putting everyone through. He knew something was wrong, he just wasn't sure what. 

And that's that. My childhood hero is gone...even the invincible have to go. LP II will never get to meet LP V but I know that when he's old enough to understand, he will be just as proud of his great-grandad as I am. Maybe I can give him his first bowl of Raisin Bran. :)

Rest in peace Grandad.
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